John and a male scientist
Jun. 14th, 2025 06:45 pm![[syndicated profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/feed.png)
Hi all, I'm looking for a specific fic that I read a long time ago, but I'm also open to other similar fics. I've tried using some of the other fanfic search sites with no luck, so I'm hoping for better luck here...
I'm looking for a story where John is involved with one of the male scientists who dies because of the nanovirus from the "Hot Zone" episode. Because of DADT, he can not openly mourn the loss of his partner. I'm pretty sure that Rodney knew about their relationship and offered his condolences. I think the story ended up as a McShep story by the end.
This is the story I'm really hoping to find, but I wouldn't mind some recs in a similar vein...John is romantically involved with a male scientist who dies or even just leaves. John can't openly mourn the loss either because of DADT or simply because of his own inability to express his emotions healthily, and preferably ends up McShep.
Any help would be greatly appreciated!